hurt by friends

i wish just once i could find a friend that i could keep forever. i do not know if it is me or what. i find lots of people who i can call a friend, but no one i can call my best friend. and when i do something goes wrong and they are gone. i am a stay at home mother of a wonderful boy. i have a great husband. a nice house. a wonderful family. but no best friends. no one too talk to. no one to hang out with and go shopping with and have lunch dates with. no one to be there in times of trouble or bad days. i wish i k now what was so bad about me. i have had a few friends that i thought wuold always be there. then something happens and bam. it over. i guess i'm dumded to be alone in this world. no best friend for me ii guess.